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Absence
by Shimmerless Star ©

 Sitting in this lonely, dark room,
trying to figure out my life.
Family puts me down,
that really doesn't seem right.
People talk shit,
but why do I care?
I guess deep down inside of me,
fears the absence of kindness.
Often thoughts of suicide,
that'd be my way out.
People say you commit it,
and get forgotten and go to hell.
Don't you see??
That's my reason.
Forget I ever lived,
the world seems better that way.
To me I'm a waste of flesh.
there's no reason to live.
I wish this world was easier.
Why can't I escape my pain.
I may seem happy and cheerful,
but it's all just an act.
I'm hiding my depression.
from the cold-hearted world.

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Alive and Well...
by *Snatch ©

  Looking back at the years,
there's so much I could tell.
I made it through despite my fears,
and I'm still alive and well.
Those early times, first on my own...
were sometimes a private hell.
I thought I'd finally found a home,
but that was until I fell..
I fell in love with someone,
or so that's what I thought.
When it finally came undone,
it was a lesson I never forgot.
Time kept passing, as time does,
it carried me along.
I made mistake along the way,
and choices that were wrong.
Each time that I took a fall,
I got back on my feet.
The biggest lesson of them all,
was learning not to accept defeat.
Of course there's times you cannot win,
from those you walk away.
Just to start all over again,
on another day.
I made many friends thru the years,
most I tried to keep.
Shared some laughter and some tears,
parting made me weep.
But I also found the heart does heal,
if given the time it takes.
Life's painful lessons are very real,
like learning from mistakes.
Good and bad times are all a part,
of living life each day.
If you knew it all from the start...
there'd be no price to pay.
But as we know, nothing's free,
nothing of which I'm aware.
At times it's hard to pay the fee,
other times its easy to share.
My story, only I can tell,
as I sit here today.
And here I am, alive and well..
trying to have my say.
I can only pass my knowledge on,
for whatever good it'll do.
No decisions will be based upon,
anything I knew.
Lessons are best learned from mistakes,
you'll find this to be true.
And I guess that's what it takes,
in this life to get us through.
Don't walk past the flowers,
be sure to stop and smell.
Their fragrance has the power,
to remind you, your alive and well.
Share a smile with someone,
you pass on the street.
Do the things that must be done,
then give yourself a treat.
Forget all the bad things,
that's not the place to dwell.
Just listen as the bird sings,
and be glad your alive and well...

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Alone In A Crowd
by Cuntrygyrl ©

Sitting in this room
Surrounded by my friends
Laughing on the outside
But my crying never ends
I keep it all inside
Waiting for that day
When all my fears and darkness
Will be completely gone away
But will that day come
Will it ever arrive
When my feelings of despair are gone
And I really feel alive.

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Always Here
by Masters Angel > ©

When you are all alone,
know that I am here for you
that nothing you do, you will ever do alone.
If I am not there in person,
know that I am there in spirit.
If I am not there to lend support,
know that if you are doing right in your heart
then you have my support.

When it is late at night,
and you get lonely, know that I am there in your heart
always know that I am there with you.
and that you will always have someone here.

When you feel the world is against you,
know that I am on your side
Even when you have messed up
You will never let me down.
When you think there is no making it right
Know that you did when you came to me

When you are by yourself, when I am dead,
know that I am everywhere.
When you look up at the stars, I am the one twinkling at you
I am the breeze that is in your face
I am the stranger on the corner that gives you a smile
I am the song that comes on to remind you of me
I am the strength you get when you feel drained
I am there to keep you warm when you get cold

You will never be alone, that I can promise you,
Even when no body is around, I am in spirit.
Know that one day we shall be together again,
But until then, remember these words.
And when you close your eyes at night, remember
I am the sunrise that will bring you a brand new day

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Anger
by Pyro ©

 Angry words
Flung at each other from across the room
Like dishes, knives, forks and spoons
The intent? To hurt!
And make obtained hurt feel better.

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Behind My Eyes
by g_kcat ©

 Sometimes I despise the darkness within me,
Other times I embrace it and set it free,
Ugly images from the bleakest part of my brain,
Fill me ideas of suicide and pain,
Only billowing stormy skies,
Of pain and dying live behind my eyes,
Surrealistic fantasies consume my dreams,
Going to sleep unleashes their schemes,
Inside the cobwebs of my drafty heart,
Lives a hollowness that tears me apart,
Torturous thoughts of ending my life,
Carving into my flesh with a knife,
Watching the crimson red drops of rain,
Every drop releases some of my pain,
Other visions enter me,
Like wrapping my car around a tree,
I barely survive in this desolate plane,
Sometimes I think I’m going insane!